Yosseling's Story
Hi, my name is Yosseling.
Today, I want to share a piece of my life. I hope that it can help you on your journey with God. I want to share the not so glorious moments I've lived.
I moved to Los Angeles seven years ago for the sake of preaching the gospel. It was a huge leap of faith for me and my family because I was moving across the country to a city that was not my own. Nonetheless, I was looking forward to obeying God and following him through and through.
I have had seven years of amazing and bizarre experiences. So many ups and downs and changes all around. In every season, God has never failed to show himself faithful and true. He always turned every negative situation around for my good.
In my fifth year of being in LA, I lost my eleven-year marriage. I became a single mom in a big city, with no family. I went from being in ministry to no longer doing ministry. I had to go back to school and work several jobs. I was like a fish out of water and what I had loved to do for so long was no longer part of my life.
I developed severe anxiety which was something I had never experienced. I also had several panic attacks as my mind was in a "fight or flight" mode. It seemed like things didn't get better but got worse from there. I lost a close family member due to suicide, and I had a car accident on the highway which resulted in losing my car. It was like a world of terror had come into my life. I know if you're still reading you're wondering "how and why"? Same. So did I.
I did not question God’s goodness but my own ability to make it through. All I had was weakness and it seemed like strength was no longer a part of me. I did the only thing I know to do best, and that was to worship him. I understood this from most of my Christian life: "being at his feet is the only thing I need, and want" (Luke 10:42).
Choosing to posture yourself before God in abandonment despite the suffering is the doorway to experiencing heaven on earth. There is absolutely no greater comfort than having the most beautiful being rest upon you: the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit was truly my best friend during this entire season of chaos. He became everything to me because there simply was nowhere else to go. My heart felt safe and comforted.
The Holy Spirit is not a judgmental church member, a critical brother/sister, he's not pointing the finger at your weakness, he's not looking to be impressed, he's not leading you astray to a place of sin. He is perfect and knows how to comfort you in every moment. Scripture says, “I will ask the father, and he will give you another helper, that he may abide with you forever,” (John 14:16).
There was no satisfaction in any other thing. You see, when our human hearts go through a breaking point, where there is no explanation for what is happening around you. There is absolutely no one that can make it feel better. There's no human love that can ease the pain of loss. There is only one that can redeem you from the ashes and make your story beautiful. This is by beholding the face of Jesus and finding comfort in the Holy Spirit. I chose to embrace the breaking and through fellowship with his Spirit, I was awakened to a greater reality of who he is.
I learned to become the child that can rest in her father’s arms. I learned to walk on water during the storm like my Lord. I learned to cry out like David did. I learned to embrace the suffering and build on it like Paul (Philippians 1:21). None of this was possible without the Holy Spirit. I speak of the spiritual reward (growth) of what I went through.
God did much more than just the spiritual! He met me in the natural too. This showed me that he truly cares for his children. Nothing is impossible for God!
His instruction for me was to “dream the impossible.”
I said to him "I don't know how to right now.”
Like the loving father he is, he filled my heart with dreams and I began to write. I started to dream again for my life and the life of my children. He has shown himself so faithful, that I never lacked anything, and I always had more than enough. He knew when to bring the right people into my life and when to keep the wrong people afar. He led me to wherever his Spirit was moving. I was always at the right place, at the right time. Why? Because I was hungry for the spirit of God! There is nothing more satisfying and enjoyable than walking out the father's will.
If you are currently facing loss and disappointment in your life, I encourage you to draw near to the Holy Spirit and allow him to comfort you. Ask him to dream through you and allow him to fill your heart with hope! Make him your safe place, your hiding place. He will not hurt you or allow challenging situations without redemption. He's ready to exceed our expectations. He's on the other side of your unbelief with the most unthinkable breakthroughs! His heart is for you (Jeremiah 29:11).
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